Sunday, February 22, 2009

Small Potatoes

Not much news over here to report. Sorry to bore you . . . But lately it has hit us a little harder than usual as the weeks are slowly turning into days that a new resident in our home will soon be here. At my last dr. appointment she said "You could go into labor anytime now!" Although I knew that it was possible, it was as if permission was granted and now it's more believable!

And so I feel like I live everyday as if it were my last - without a kid. It's an interesting way to live. The laundry is caught up on, the dishes don't sit around as long, the thank you cards get written and sent out promptly, the bills don't wait as long to be paid, there is always gas in the car! Yes, I do have more time than most (I know I'm very lucky) but since we don't know when life will turn upside down we just do as much as possible in a day just to be caught up. Too bad I don't always live like this. Having this unknown deadline is very motivating. I will try to remember this once BT is here. I may not be able to keep up with the regimen right away, but once we are settled, it's not a bad way to live - like it's your last! (But in a good way)

Other random things . . . I had a total pregnancy brain moment a few weeks ago. I was ranting to Leo about something as I was getting laundry into the machine. I put the clothes in, the soap and then I walked away. Leo said "Aren't you going to start the wash?" Oh yeah, closing the top, spinning the dial and actually starting it would be helpful. He just stood there and watched me with a sirk on his face wondering if I would notice. I wouldn't have. And who knows how long it would have sat like that.

The next week, Danielle and I were at my mom's having dinner. Right in the middle I stop, my hands midair, look up and say "ouch." Everyone at the table stops and looks at me "What?! The baby?!" "Nah," I say. "My tooth. A little sensitive. I think I need a visit to the dentists office." They didn't hear me after I said tooth. When someone is as pregnant as I am right now, everything relates to the baby in some way and that's all that matters. Something like a possible cavity is small potatoes I suppose.

I'll let you all know when there are bigger potatoes to be concerned about . . .

Monday, February 16, 2009

And now we wait

Where has the month gone? Who cares . . . just let it keep passing us quickly! The last week has flown by. I had a wonderful time with Danielle here. She was such a trooper to come with me as I ran around town on my various errands. I was sad to see her leave and equally surprised to realize the next time I see her I will be a mommy!

It was mere hours between the time Danielle left to go home to NY and when Leo and I went up to Mom and Ed's to see family. There were lots of aunts, uncles and cousins in town for the weekend to celebrate birthdays and of course mom and ed's new place in NC. We were there for hours just catching up. The next day was much of the same. Leo asked me what we do for fun after we sit and talk and catch up. I told him we sit and talk and catch up some more. With such a huge family and so much time passing between visits there is much to catch up on. Oh, and we like to eat and drink so that certainly fills in the time too. Whatever we are doing just being together is fun. I think he gets it now. He really enjoys appreciates the big-ness of my family.

It was especially nice to enjoy the family with BT on the way. I had the "how ya feelin?" conversation over and over but it's cool -how many times will I get to see so many people in this state. It's kinda special! Some of the aunts even got to feel the hiccups Baby Trend has been having everyday.

Sunday was a day to relax. I'm glad we didn't have too many plans as sleep did not come to me overnight. I was feeling a little like a zombie but that didn't stop me from enjoying the few family visitors that came by to see the house on the way out of town. We love to give the tour and show people around.

We did manage to get the pack n play up in our room and Leo figured out the car seat (we think). We have a little hospital packing to do . . . and I think that's it. Then we wait.

In the meantime, I know I owe you all an updated belly pic. Again, I don't know if you can see a difference but he certainly is getting big in there! Even maternity pants are getting tight. Yikes! I will work on that today.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Fun Times

Happy Spring! That's what it feels like around here. We have enjoyed 70 degree weather for a few days and today, while it will be a tad cooler, looks like another nice day.

The first of these days began last weekend. Saturday morning we enjoyed the company of Sharon, Kerri & Rob for breakfast. It was nice to have a big breakfast together and we plan to do another one this Friday when Sharon and Stan come back into town for another quick visit.

Sunday was absolutely gorgeous and a perfect day for a Baby Shower! My friends here threw me a wonderful shower and I can't say enough about it. Friends Eleni and Mike volunteered their home and Heather and Kaitie helped in the planning, cooking and giving of the party. They did a fantastic job with everything from the invitations to the decorations, games, food, and fun. I could not have asked for a more perfect time. On top of that, everyone was so very generous. It was awesome to have my NC friends (and some family too!) all together. Where did all these friends come from?! I am so lucky! Thank you to everyone who came to celebrate with us (even Leo stayed to enjoy the day with the ladies - the benefit of Daddyhood! I think he actually had fun).

Sunday afternoon we relaxed (or rather fell onto the couches exhausted) but enjoyed the open door weather the rest of the day.

Tuesday SIL Danielle flew down to NC from NY for a visit. Yipee! I kept her busy from the start since I had some work stuff to get through and errands to run. It has been so nice to have company (and help) while out and about. We were busy for hours, relaxed for only an hour and then we were out again going to a friends house for dinner. These friends are my "mommy" friends since I met them through a mommy group so there was lots of mommy talk that even I can't completely relate to yet. Hopefully Danielle was not scared off from becoming a mommy herself -it can be a little overwhelming and scary hearing the stories!

Wednesday we had another busy day of last minute shopping for baby necessities and then visiting Mom and Ed in Creedmoor. I helped her hang some Uppercase lettering in the house. They are very settled now since they have picures and things on the wall. It's as if they have lived there forever now!

And then it was Lost night. Yes, as Lost fans it is not uncommon to plan an entire day around that one exciting hour. It was a good episode.

Today . . . I don't know what's on tap for today. A walk in the sun, some food shopping, and I think I may actually cook dinner tonight. I've gotten a bit lazy about cooking lately. But I can't send Danielle home without a taste of my vodka sauce.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Hey!

Who voted for the mailman!? :)

We already decided anyway; he is going to get Mommy's cuteness and creativity. and Daddy's brains & sports ability. Killer combination!

-Leo

OMG . . .

. . . we're gonna be parents NEXT MONTH! It's amazing how this knowledge will hit you differently everyday. Back around the holidays it hit me when we were all together, with my siblings, playing a game one night. Sitting around, drinking (well, they were), laughing and playing I thought - this will be the last time it will be just like this. It won't be bad, the changes that are coming, just different. The focus will be on BT (Baby Trend) for a while (ok, forever. Let's face it, I will cease to exist for a while. I am that confident that our child will be so stunning to look at.) and instead of whatever we want it will be all about what he wants. We'll play games and laugh and drink (amen) but it will be changed - interupted by feedings, changings and even calls to who ever may be taking care of him to make sure all those things have been taken care of.

Months ago I was taking a bath (my #1 fav thing to do - can I keep this activity?!), thinking about our life and I had a little freak out session that it would all change and Leo and I would be different and we wouldn't be close and OMG, what if, what if, what if?! Looking back, just a short time later, and beforeBT is even here, I see that I was right. It will be different. But in such a good way. Yeah, I still worry we will lose something close about us and they way we live. But I'm pretty sure we will find our way and make the best of it all and find a new way to be us. Our evening routine won't be quite the same (in bed by 10:30/11 to watch a little news, or a TV show and then Leno). But it will be richer in many ways. Also, that's what TiVo is for.

And once again, it hits me. On Sunday I was feeling particularly weepy (more to myself than all over the place messy - it was Superbowl Sunday I didn't want to ruin Leo's Holiday) and later realized, "It's February." When my subconscious caught up to me I realized that next month was the month. It wasn't all that unfamiliar - the feeling of time creeping up on you. I remember this well from the wedding planning days. Only then I knew exactly how much time I had to tie ribbons and buy shoes. Now, I have no idea how much time is left and what exactly I should be doing to prepare for it. And really, the ribbons and shoes didn't matter in the long run. But now, the precence of a new family member matters tremendously and we want to do it right from the start. And so, I lay in bed quite early this morning thinking "Oh my God. We're gonna be parents next month!"

So the countdown continues but in a much different way. Instead of the 6 weeks that we have been relying on (until the due date) I've come to accept that in actuality, like rebate checks and mail order items, it is more lke 4-8 weeks. I have to prepare my brain for an early arrival - or a late one. Oh I really would not like a late one. I am already barely getting through some days. By nighttime I am uncomfortable and cranky. By morning my hips hurt, I'm still tired if I end up getting up early like today, and this morning, even my hands hurt. Damn water retention. Yes, yes - the nights will be even longer after BT's eventual birthday. But at least then I will have someone to hold on to at 5am. Because next month we're going to be parents!