27 Days

My little Benny will be a  year old in 27 days. How did this happen? Right now he is almost a walker and a very fast crawler in the meantime. He can do stairs up with ease (though his understanding of gravity is nil). He can clap and do high fives and he did a few kisses last night that tickled me pink. But above all he loves his mama. A lot! He's going through that lovely stage of separation anxiety and he must be in my arms at all times if he can see, hear or smell me. As sweet as it is, it is not convenient. I can do a lot of things with one hand but not all. He does not care. He must be with mommy.

His fifth tooth is in and his hair is coming in too. He still has two naps a day and sleeps all night. These are uninteresting and ephemeral facts. But when I snuggle Benny and think about Nathan - cherishing one while thinking about what he will become - I fear I will forget what it's like. Milestones. Smiles. Messes. Firsts. Although I don't want more babies, even I can admit it's sad to think about how my baby isn't a baby anymore. The time is so fleeting.