A Break

Aaahhhh.....a break. I so needed this. Sleep has continued to be a challenge for me. When sleep is scarce, so is patience. But I have had a couple good days of catch up and here I am. All caught up. It's blissfully quiet and clean. I literally have done everything on my to-do list and so I'm waiting in the quiet of the clean house for the holiday fun to begin. Gigi has had Nathan for over 24 hours. I'm starting to sound like I prefer him not being home. But of course that's not true. We both miss him when he's not home. But the catching up and resting - oh how I needed it! He will be home soon - hopped up on french fries and chocolate milk from McD's (thanks Mom...hahah) and I will be able to enjoy him more and give him attention when I am not disctracted (or sleepy). Then the Kepler crew will be following soon after. They are probably in VA by now. Yay!

The break isn't just about getting things done and even sleeping. It's just being alone. Although even right this very minute I'm not. This little boy kicking my liver reminds me that I'm never alone and that soon there will be less and less of that alone time, even when he's outta me. The time we have as a threesome is coming to a close too. And being a frazzled tired mommy is coming fast. Knowing what's coming the 2nd time around is as scary as it is comforting. We know what to expect (that's good). And we know what to expect (that's bad!). It's a mixed bag of emotions, a growing family. But I think we are ready for it.